silence
May 5, 2010
You keep running, faster than ever, only to realize that there is just no place to hide. no where to go.
The knowledge that you have a spent what almost seems like a lifetime, on worrying about others, making everyone else happy, in an attempt to be happy, is hard. You reach a point where you turn around, and take one good look at the years that you spent, not for yourself, but mostly for others. you wonder what it would have been like, to live, just for yourself, for your own dreams, for your own wishes.
There is just so much trapped inside you. Behind that five inch smile, set as default, there is just so much to tell. You want to scream out loud. you want to go against the so-called rules, the norms, the responsibilities.
You stand still, and you wonder, deep inside, if there is a chance for revisions, for turning around, for changing decisions. you think harder, each time. and your mind plays with you. you battle with yourself constantly. over and over again. until the silence takes over you.
I like it very much. Although i don’t really know if it’s a poem or just a an inspiration…
Really really nice.
Btw some people just love to make other happy,
for some of us helping the other is like giving a sense to our life,
for some of us helping the other is what make us happy,
for some of us helping the other is like spending time with ‘me’
for some of us helping the other make us feel they is no time nor space but just now
for some of us helping the other is helping ourself
Life is such… isn’t??
there is always a chance for revisions I believe…. to turn around… for changing decisions….
Welcome back Tamipu…. after many many days… I had been waiting for a post from you
wish you are living happily…
very nicely written, so similar to my style and sentiments